can't seem to get it right

seems like every time things settle down enough
to take a breath
something else comes along to mess up
the careful balance I have obtained

hyperactive/hypersensitive...is there a difference?

I have been so restless this week
in the past this would have been the turning point
in whatever "relationship" I was in at the time.
The point where I said
"maybe I love you, but I don't want to be with you...after all."
I've just come to this conclusion.

I did it

i don't know whether to be scared or proud of myself
i hit submit
i posted these (not so) secret inner workings of my brain
enjoy.

8-16-07

it's a struggle to overlook
the inadequacy of others
work is more of the same from yesterday
simple mistakes that could cause big problems
we all make them
why can't i just let them go?

I'm ranting - i must be a lunatic

i can't wrap my head aroudn the fact that most people don't get th big picture of patient care.
"I can't give refills right now because I have too many patients to see - right now." - three weeks later adn still no refills.
how can you effectively treat an illness if you only treat the onset and then ignore the patient's problem unless they're sitting in the office, they could make you less busy if you'd just give them their refills instead of giving them a heart attack because they ran out of meds.

I want to help people
I don't have the stomach to be a nurse
I don't have the desire to be a doctor
I dont' have the mental stability to be a therapist