Who Is That Girl I See Staring Straight Back At Me?

So, after posting last night about how my husband was so supportive and understanding that this illness isn't ME, we had a confrontation. I was so "hyper" yesterday but I got nothing accomplished. I didn't clean the kitchen as he had asked me to, i only did one load of laundry that didn't even make it into the dryer until about 9pm. I fell asleep around 6pm and woke up at 9pm.

So Much For My Happy Ending

I am very disappointed this week. Got my letter from Social Security Disability - DENIED! I was kind of expecting this but it still makes me very angry and upset.

The Lord Works In Mysterious Ways

This is something that I posted to my support group this morning, and just wanted to add to my blog so that it is easier to find when I am feeling low and like I am alone in the world.

I have been reflecting a bit this morning, and I have come to the conclusion

that God is watching out for me. There are SO many groups/ support group sites

that address bipolar. But I was referred to this one. This Christian one where

not only is it allowed, but encouraged to use the Lord in our messages to one

another. To remind each other that God is watching out for us, and that He has a

much bigger plan for us than we may ever see. One thing that is becoming

increasingly more difficult for me is seeing outside of my own world, and

getting attuned to "The Big Picture"

AFK For Too Long

I have been doing not so well with the regular blogging. So here's an update.

My sleep schedule is messed up. For whatever reason Monday night I could NOT sleep. Was tossing and turning and flitting in and out of sleep until 3 a.m. before I finally said "ENOUGH!" and got up. Went into the kitchen, ate a popsicle (I think?) and sat in my recliner. Next thing I remember is David waking me up at like 7:30 a.m. and being like "Are you ok?" I could NOT wake up, my brain was so foggy, my eyes were open I was "awake" physically, but my brain wasn't functional. So I am sitting there and my phone is on the table next to me. (At this point David had already left) And I was like "why is my phone here? I KNOW I put it on the charger last night" So I call David, "Did I put your phone of my charger last night?" "Nope" he said. "Ok, so..I remember putting A phone on my charger, but my phone is sitting on the table." I said. He says, "I put it next to you so I could call you in a few minutes to make sure you were awake. I told you when I set it next to you." ...YEAH... I didn't remember that at all.

Found this note in my Facebook account..had forgotten about it. SO TRUE

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 16 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 16 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you."

1) There is a monster locked inside of me, I keep it well guarded because i am afraid if I let it out at all I will lose control and I will destroy everyone I love