yawn.

here it is: 12:06a.m.
I'm still awake, tremendously tired
and yet I'm sitting here
feeling like I don't want to go to bed.

I have been working (a little)
on editing a novel that my brother-in-law is writing
I am a stickler for spelling things correctly
and (most) use of proper grammar.
You wouldn't know it to speak to me.
I say "good" when I should say "well".
but that's neither here nor there.

I don't understand how one day can be so good and the next so bad. Is it because after a good day a normal day feels less than normal?

She's Mine

I made this girl. Sometimes that frightens me. I can't believe she's been a part of me for almost five years now. More later. I'm typing this from my phone at work.

can't seem to get it right

seems like every time things settle down enough
to take a breath
something else comes along to mess up
the careful balance I have obtained

hyperactive/hypersensitive...is there a difference?

I have been so restless this week
in the past this would have been the turning point
in whatever "relationship" I was in at the time.
The point where I said
"maybe I love you, but I don't want to be with you...after all."
I've just come to this conclusion.